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Washed Over by CL His blue eyes reflect on Blue droplets coming from mine I feel empty With no physical strength No drive to rise How can I be so caught up He is a person Not my God But he holds So much of my love He's crappy to me He takes me for granted He doesn't give 110% And I'm not his queen Yet, I stay I stay through sleepless nights Shaking as I fall asleep And dark mornings Where no sign of him arises Clinging onto the hope That he will improve It is in my best interest that I leave I know this to be true But I don't  My heart stays My eyes heavy Tired from trying Worn from persevering  I just sit motionless And let his blue eyes wash over me

Weathered by CL Dark clouds drift closer, Neck aches foreshadow the pain. I run for shelter? No, for I can bear all rain. My feet are now weights, Holding me in my right place, Keep me from mistakes. Darkness uncovers what is. As sunlight hides fists. Rain pours into this abyss.  Victimized by wind, Throwing oceans in my soul, Drops penetrate thoughts. My mouth gaping as to scream, Yet words do not seem To connect to emotions, The water has sparked. As lightness rejoins wet ground, Clouds fade into shrouds. My weights still, but water raves. I, the source of rain. As the sun attempts to dry, I thank its presence. But, one day I, too, will thank the dark clouds. For I believe that it is my sadness That emanates my happiness. And it is crying That refreshes my vision.

This Time by CL 6 months time passes Your name Appearing on my phone In my mind Every day Yet I still Feel excitement rush through Butterflies shiver my spine The idea of love dances in my mind But do you still Feel the same this time?

Lifeless Comfort by CL Lately, my bed is the best company. Disturbed by the sound of uneven breaths. Thoughts become blankets, silence my pillow. The only thing that understands what is. A swaddled child in lifeless comfort. My mind afraid of its disinterest. Distancing myself from those who hold joy. Alien thoughts have arrived unwelcome. My role model, forgotten how to love. Happy and belligerent, has left me. Far from home. Home where love and happiness can be found. But now, where I lie in lifeless comfort.