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Waiting by CL It took courage But the rope has been set aside My heart can love No more restraint My mind can dream My pen can write My person can be But is that what you want Is it what you heart hears Insecurities rage The only place I'm certain Is beside you Your presence felt Hands unknowingly brush mine But they are so far Moments we share My guard can be let down It will take courage  But the rope has been set aside

Washed Over by CL His blue eyes reflect on Blue droplets coming from mine I feel empty With no physical strength No drive to rise How can I be so caught up He is a person Not my God But he holds So much of my love He's crappy to me He takes me for granted He doesn't give 110% And I'm not his queen Yet, I stay I stay through sleepless nights Shaking as I fall asleep And dark mornings Where no sign of him arises Clinging onto the hope That he will improve It is in my best interest that I leave I know this to be true But I don't  My heart stays My eyes heavy Tired from trying Worn from persevering  I just sit motionless And let his blue eyes wash over me

Weathered by CL Dark clouds drift closer, Neck aches foreshadow the pain. I run for shelter? No, for I can bear all rain. My feet are now weights, Holding me in my right place, Keep me from mistakes. Darkness uncovers what is. As sunlight hides fists. Rain pours into this abyss.  Victimized by wind, Throwing oceans in my soul, Drops penetrate thoughts. My mouth gaping as to scream, Yet words do not seem To connect to emotions, The water has sparked. As lightness rejoins wet ground, Clouds fade into shrouds. My weights still, but water raves. I, the source of rain. As the sun attempts to dry, I thank its presence. But, one day I, too, will thank the dark clouds. For I believe that it is my sadness That emanates my happiness. And it is crying That refreshes my vision.

This Time by CL 6 months time passes Your name Appearing on my phone In my mind Every day Yet I still Feel excitement rush through Butterflies shiver my spine The idea of love dances in my mind But do you still Feel the same this time?

Lifeless Comfort by CL Lately, my bed is the best company. Disturbed by the sound of uneven breaths. Thoughts become blankets, silence my pillow. The only thing that understands what is. A swaddled child in lifeless comfort. My mind afraid of its disinterest. Distancing myself from those who hold joy. Alien thoughts have arrived unwelcome. My role model, forgotten how to love. Happy and belligerent, has left me. Far from home. Home where love and happiness can be found. But now, where I lie in lifeless comfort.

7.125 Billion by CL The things that make my heart hurt Only resonate with mine alone. They bubble behind my eyes, They coward, they stay there, Too afraid to expose themselves, Not ready to evaporate.

Love ages by CL  Why does time penetrate The love we once ate? Why do we forget fate Guided our first date? Boredom becomes reality Moments become quiet Butterflies fly away Migrating to warm weather My heart inclined to surrender It's almost easier to give up Allow time to pass Let maturity ensue Forget that dreams Aren't reality And that needs  Aren't wants We can't stay young forever Moments will become memories  So make new moments, my love You are little. The world is big, Do not be brittle. Go out and sing.

One Day by CL One day I will understand, You lie to my face. Everything will be okay, You lie in my place. Your flight was canceled,  Protect yourself, hide your guilt. Grant me suffering, It will be okay... You coward, you cunt. Oh, I am sorry. I apologize, God forbid I hurt your heart. Your fragile, fragile, Heart. It must have shattered years past. Lord knows that thing could not last. At least you still have Your eyes, your brown eyes. Filled with shame and tears. They will never see the same. The eyes you past onto me, Rest, staring at you. The man I once loved, Now cloudy and gray. My eyes, empty cataracts. Your eyes, overflowing lakes. Ignorant to your evil, You run, following satan. Unable to turn around. Yet, I wait. I wait until the dawn breaks. Morning after morning, the Sun rises. But, I see darkness. The darkness you have shadowed. Plagues my eyes, My eyes you past on. In your absence, you...

Ribbons and Bows by CL The cold that lies, In the wishing for demise, Was once shielded from my eyes. Now I no longer see shadows, For the light has shined on those, Who no longer care about ribbons and bows.

i by CL i want to be held swaddled like a baby whisked away into the clouds surrounded by blue while the light shines on us two i write what i believe i believe in love magical and effortless i believe in hate magical and effortless i miss innocence watching butterflies running freely i remember it too clearly pains me to think that no matter how hard i believe life will never be that way, for me while the past holds great pleasures, the future holds great treasures in his eyes i see the future in her hands i see my story in my heart i see eternity