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7.125 Billion by CL The things that make my heart hurt Only resonate with mine alone. They bubble behind my eyes, They coward, they stay there, Too afraid to expose themselves, Not ready to evaporate.

Love ages by CL  Why does time penetrate The love we once ate? Why do we forget fate Guided our first date? Boredom becomes reality Moments become quiet Butterflies fly away Migrating to warm weather My heart inclined to surrender It's almost easier to give up Allow time to pass Let maturity ensue Forget that dreams Aren't reality And that needs  Aren't wants We can't stay young forever Moments will become memories  So make new moments, my love You are little. The world is big, Do not be brittle. Go out and sing.

One Day by CL One day I will understand, You lie to my face. Everything will be okay, You lie in my place. Your flight was canceled,  Protect yourself, hide your guilt. Grant me suffering, It will be okay... You coward, you cunt. Oh, I am sorry. I apologize, God forbid I hurt your heart. Your fragile, fragile, Heart. It must have shattered years past. Lord knows that thing could not last. At least you still have Your eyes, your brown eyes. Filled with shame and tears. They will never see the same. The eyes you past onto me, Rest, staring at you. The man I once loved, Now cloudy and gray. My eyes, empty cataracts. Your eyes, overflowing lakes. Ignorant to your evil, You run, following satan. Unable to turn around. Yet, I wait. I wait until the dawn breaks. Morning after morning, the Sun rises. But, I see darkness. The darkness you have shadowed. Plagues my eyes, My eyes you past on. In your absence, you los

Ribbons and Bows by CL The cold that lies, In the wishing for demise, Was once shielded from my eyes. Now I no longer see shadows, For the light has shined on those, Who no longer care about ribbons and bows.

i by CL i want to be held swaddled like a baby whisked away into the clouds surrounded by blue while the light shines on us two i write what i believe i believe in love magical and effortless i believe in hate magical and effortless i miss innocence watching butterflies running freely i remember it too clearly pains me to think that no matter how hard i believe life will never be that way, for me while the past holds great pleasures, the future holds great treasures in his eyes i see the future in her hands i see my story in my heart i see eternity

What if by CL If fate were just a moment Where two eyes met In a crowd of thousands Then I'm glad I went If love were created through sight Where friends once wept In a realm of a million messages When two people made life alright Oblivion for the clueless A future for the wise Hope keeps us together Memories keep us alive Lyrics our soil Words our mobile The only one who understands What my indecisive mind has planned

As Sleep Enters by CL Wind out Air slows No one shouts No need to forget As many anew pour in His blue eyes The way he touches my chin The ocean rolls The grass whistles Only remembering now Shaded from the bristles For now is good And breath is clean Eyes flicker More thoughts flow My eyes shut oh so slow Typing blindly yet again Raw thoughts sent through pen I think of Fin In heaven with Him In fields with no distress Without bosses and lives a mess No requirements for stress is wrong No negativity He who has the nativity  Why when I shut my eyes Does Jesus always arise In my words and my mind His way he always finds I'm not a religious person For I believe in faith over conversion But He must always appear Whispering wisdom through my ear Darkness may be all I see But my fingers type so freely These thoughts so natura

Dusk at Midnight by CL My thoughts shine Like the moon Dripping through my shutters Illuminating my walls My white blankets reflecting Snow on a cool summer night Fresh air refreshing my breath Listening to crickets buzz A quiet city through my window Roam as the moonlight lies Awakening my eyes Shining until I rise My thoughts flicker Time moves quicker The moon stains my sheets blue As I bid today adea

Stress Seizes  by CL When my arms are restricted By thoughts that stay No poetic flow for one so still A lazy ass in my brain Making my nose cringe My breathing sharp Behind my eyes Relentless in its ways No cure but dreams Try to see darkness The lazy ass in the way Burrowing it's way into my heart Try to shake it off Laugh too much No way to kill the pain No poetry can cure No river of words allowed Just a lazy ass Sitting upstairs Stuck under my head Hidden from sight Making the ocean ugly Converting optimists to stone Stress to the strong Fire to the rain

Planned by CL Into life we enter Blueprints in hand Our steps all pre planned Fate intertwining within each second Every glance significant Nothing a mistake Every hello life changing Effects everlasting Although all hellos are sent from above Only a few are recognized as love Named friends meet from afar Inseparable at heart How must time play a role When friends complete the empty hole For life to me is just a stroll

Shutters by CL Shutters try to shut But lights keep flashing My eyes try to close But memories keep dancing Moments mistaken as darkness A roadblock to sleep Your embrace still familiar Your words with me linger

Soul Made by CL Stop once or twice to admire the blue But for the most just swimming into few Have you ever felt your heart bump One beat after the other Time ticking heart tripping You stop your heart don't stop mine Friends like them just tricking my rhyme Smiles that can't be controlled Now that's why I've been patrolled If time don't stop when I'm around Then you've best start searching the ground The plan is still written in stone Just find the gravel and you'll be gold I got soul mates all around But I've got sixty more Years grown How am I gonna fit em all in my heaven God help me I wish I was still eleven Back when time was simple I wouldn't need to rhyme to make it nimble My eyes are shut but my fingers move Am I hitting the right keys Does He approve Who even is HE Show me I want to see Where's your plan taking me Friends I see Reading my poetry But my poems still goin

Tears by CL I miss dreaming of our future Now it won't ever come As a tear crawls down my face I'm unaware of the time of space Your presence the only thing in mind The tear tickles wet down my cheek Focusing on its path Refusing to wipe it away Evidence that you were once here More real than any photograph  A tear slowly sliding away As I feel it disappear I wipe away any dew left behind Off to dreams where I can fantasize Without tears or pain Just me and you

Reflecting  by CL One lonely puddle Open to all God’s graces All of the worlds vices As the wind strokes Effortlessly over it No white waves Just a lonely pond A flipbook of halos Appear on the surface Light flickering Forcing itself through the clouds So it can reach the lonely bath If I were to stand beside it Attempt to be its friend I would only see my face The puddle hiding its own Identity not defined Just a lonely splash Patted by angels from above Swept by a fathers breath Warmed by a mothers light One lonely puddle

Temporarily Blind by CL This green and blue A bed and breakfast to you The yellow and white The place where there is no night You wait there for me For one day soon I will be Forgetting to anticipate Ready for my soul to precipitate Meet me there How do I prepare I only know how to breath air I try to find something to expect So I treat others with love and respect Can I do more Oh please let your rains pour Shut my eyes to find darkness I won't see past this abyss Though, I try to trust Oh how I must You guide me down a path Of mysteries and wrath Blinded until the end Will I find you there, my friend Wait for me past the open green and blue For tomorrow, let's watch the light imbue

Your Blue Eyes by CL Your blue eyes They hold so much My deepest prize Reaching for me to touch They hold stories Of love and hate They've seen flaming glories Noth ing I can remake How I long to sink Into your melted rink I'll make old memories new Keep them when we bid adea I lie until my muscles ache Until the stars turn into the sun A swell that no one can break The eyes that make me run When I see them My heart slows No need for complications Simple situations Let the night roll a little longer Hold me a little stronger For when green turns to brown Promise me your blue eyes will still be around 

Our Differences by CL Every single soul Has its very own poem. Every one poem, Written line by line and Rhythm by rhythm. But no matter how  Different the rhythm is, All are made from pattering rain

Words  by CL Words Moving memories forwards Bringing the past to present Written on paper Spoken by tongue Passed along one by one People relive moments After pouring out their soul Reshaping hearts whole Words  Travel with the birds Bringing together This magical world Invented humans Made common sense Spreading love Shedding tears Prayers from up above Shaping friends Moving souls Creating emotions to enroll Poetic verses echoe in the street Wait for the day when all words meet Words Make nothing unheard For only one can Defeat a lifespan The first child hears Last to disappear As He moves forwards One presents itself Words

Summer with You by CL We lay Under the trees One night in early May Your eyes hidden, Your body forbidden Minds dancing Time prancing We stood In the water Surrounded by what could Holding on tight This moment feels so right Feet walking Hearts rocking We stay Close to the stars Away from all we stray Two oceans stare Lean in, my heart can't bare Souls wanting Thrill haunting We float Above the sea Protected by our boat Give me your hand Pull me far from the sand Hands touching Time clutching We sight The clouds move on Shadows shading the light Music fades in Share your effortless grin Clocks dribbling Words scribbling

Time Ramblings by CL It's funny how In one moment Life turns into history Reality Taken for granted Is taken away Friends move on Moments keep flooding Even if all the clocks Were stopped Time would keep rolling The sun would set And rise Human inventions Can't control life For time is one in itself Uncontrollable Undeniable Precious A gift to us Forgotten and hidden away

Faith Filled by CL There's a difference Between faith and religion. Give me hope, don't put me down. Help me to fly, keep me off the ground. Love given, no money taken. Free air, no need to be awakened. No requirements, No establishments, Just happy environments. Our differences value, All across the blue. Love one another, For you have the same mother. He, it, them, or she. It doesn't matter to me. Trust in life, Believe in love. Know that someone Is up above.

Rambling Sorrows by CL I miss you Like the way waves hit the sand It's bittersweet Every memory Flows in Flows away Return yesterday You're home I'm waiting through This life on my own I love you You're not here but I can feel Come back Just for a day You were real Now you're a thought A wish Praying to someone Is anyone even there Whistling back Blow away my sorrow Let me see him again Let me meet you Bring me home Meet me on the front porch The back deck The rooftop Wherever Take me home to you

Our Last Goodbye by CL In the night your eyes Twinkle as I fall asleep. Dream of what once was Our careless reality. When life turned into Memories fading away, Sleep was my escape. Before my eyes shut, Pictures of you. Right in front of me, So far away. Your eyes last shut, Looking into mine. I disappeared into life, Your clothes stayed with me. Internally bare, I couldn't look. Walk out, was I leaving you? My head turned around, One last look, last forever. Please, time do not move. But time moved. Memories ensued. I feel with my heart, Your soft soul with me now. I see with my eyes, In front of me, behind me. You are here, but there. Guide me from above, bring peace. As a soft wind flows through grass, Where you once lay down, I think of our last goodbye, Dreaming of our next hello.

Stay by CL For too long I missed Your gentle way of longing Me as your forever. Thinking we would cease never. But time do us part And wise men intercede. Your love stands apart Falling as the rains recede. Support and passion Show  some things are  meant to be . No combination Of words ever see. Take my hand , I write Too busy taking my time. Only fools rush in , Impatience ruins rhyme. But please stay within I can't help my heart, foreign.

Cherish by CL Why doesn't time stop? Just give me a moment to Look around this world. Let me remember this day. How my mother smiles. How the music rings tonight. If time stopped, I would Tell her I love her. Lay back with no anticipations. I wouldn't forget How she sounded when she said Goodbye I love you.

For my mom by CL The one who holds me, With tears falling down my cheeks. Who I want to be, With every moment love speaks. Laugh at my antics, Guide me to make the right choice. Teaching me ethics, I look to your smile and voice. Shop until you drop, Live off grilled cheese and ketchup, Dance and never stop, And don't let age grow you up. Time passes, distance divides, Whenever I need you, you're right by my side.

Swayed Away by CL Remembering when I could gaze into your eyes, Blind by all but your soul. Noticing the sun twinkling as I realize, You are my faithful whole. Shimmering with adventure of the unknown, While whispering soft songs of what could be grown. The ocean swims where our hearts flare, As innocence combs through your hair. Sand painted palms sleep on my purest hips. For when the soft wind begins to kiss my lips, Oh you sway me into the heavenly new. I fall into you, forever us two. And when waves begin to stray,  Hidden are the green and blue. Our blissful sun slips away, Leaving shadows to imbue. The warmth that fell from your eyes, Forever drifting anew, As time flies in our night skies.

Deep Blue by CL Falling yet I soar. Rescue me, cradle me. Every song, so strong, you roar. Engulf me, and release me, don't let them see.

Night by CL Darkness. Blinded and deaf. Time slips away yet time grows. Homeless nostalgia recollects. Eventide.

His Absent Presence by CL My notebook of guilt. My listening shield of shame. His absent presence.

Forever Home by CL When darkness Is the only light, And forever has said goodbye, His love will bring you home tonight. Wind gently drifts, The beat of a drum softly slows, Green fades to black, But His love eternally glows. Rain falls from trees, The pink of a flower waves to rest, Clouds shade to grey,  But His love will burn in your chest. For when leaves lie outright, His love will bring you home tonight.

Forever by CL Don't, He said, Let the tears pour. Your clock is ticking, Forever is now. Let the wind Feel like needles As you run to my arms. Let our infinity begin again. 

Never Surrender  by CL I chased love All my life. An innocent dove, Reaching for a knife. Love chased me Through the endless night. Never going free, A homeless kite. When paths crossed, Time slipped on. A love lost, Moments eternally gone.

So this is my first post. I guess it should be special... I don't have a clue what I'm doing, I've never even read a blog before. I just wanted an environment where I can share my insane thoughts. Maybe my reflections are worth something, maybe I'll even influence someone. That'd be amazing. Shit, I used the word amazing; I keep getting more cliché. Seriously though, what if I helped just one person, or changed one person's life. I'd feel special, just to know that I made someone else feel happiness or wisdom. Who doesn't think they're special though? Everyone thinks they are destined to be something great. Created to change lives, fate intertwines itself in every breath that we take.  So here's my chance to prove myself. I'm a high schooler, and I'm afraid of existence. I run after love, and I make mistakes. I wish to be on stage, to hear people laugh, but I sit back and hope that confidence will come to me. I want to express my own fe